I’m back…

… and I have a baby girl!

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I’m so happy. Little toes, a little nose, the sweetest Cupid lips and soft, brown hair. She’s absolutely beautiful and I love her to pieces.

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Emilia Violet was born at the end of August and it already feels like she’s been a part of this family forever.

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Waiting to know: the gender of our Jelly Bean!

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I started to write this post yesterday, just a few hours before heading to our morphology scan. I came back today to discover it hadn’t saved properly and so here I am starting again, only this time I’m on the other side of the scan!

Yesterday’s post explained how I was excited and eager to find out the gender of our Jelly Baby, how I couldn’t wait the 40 weeks to know and how I just wanted to know now because I’m impatient and want to go out and choose names and buy itty bitty baby clothes (gender appropriate)! For me, there’s just something about knowing the gender already that helps me connect with the child during the pregnancy. It’s easier for me to begin to form a strong bond with the baby knowing whether that baby is a boy or a girl.

Of course, I know that a scan is not 100% accurate (I know of many would-be “girls” who have been born boys), and I keep that in mind through out the rest of the pregnancy…… but I’m not going to let it hold me back from buying a stack of girly, girly, girly things!!!

Oh, yeah, did I mention that yet?

She’s a GIRL!!

Woo hoo!

We are so excited to be giving a little sister to our already adorable 2 boys! We are thrilled!

I think I’m still in a bit of shock, though. After having two boys and always having to walk straight past those cutesy, cutesy baby girl clothes (which always seemed like a dream to me), I can now waltz in to a store and pick out the sweetest, girliest outfit imaginable. Oh, the JOY! 🙂 I’m dreaming of flowery, frilly skirts, pink ballet shoes and sparkly, feathery accessories and embellishments. Dreaming, dreaming, dreaming… Oh, the JOY!

I can’t believe I’m going to have a little baby girl to hold in my arms. I’m over the moon… and I wonder how it will change the dynamic of our family.

Time will tell. 21 weeks to go! Yay!
I can’t wait!

xx Natalie.

Three Days Later

I’ve spent the past 3 days mostly in bed.

Or in the bathroom.

But mostly in bed.

Yep, I’m sick.

Thankfully I have a wonderful husband who takes on both of our roles when I’m ill. He does all the cooking and cleaning, entertaining and taking care of the children. And brings me what I need too.

I love that he’s so helpful and supportive. What would I do if he wasn’t here? Who would take care of my babies when I’m sick? Boy, am I lucky to have him. I’m so grateful for all of the time and care he puts into all of us when I’m unable to get out of bed.

But with the gratitude comes the guilt and the worry.
I know that it takes a lot of work and energy to do all of those things and not get a break for yourself. I know he must be tired after being at work all week. And I feel guilty and sad that I can’t do my share of the work. I worry about his health and well-being. How can I take care of him as well?

Ah! What to do?

He says the most important thing is for me to rest and get well so that things can go back to normal as quickly as possible. And he’s right. If I push myself without taking the time to be well, I will stay sick for longer and his having to do so much will drag on and on.

So here I am, three days later. I’m still in my bed, feeling somewhat better and hoping that this illness will pass quickly so that we can all get back to ‘normal’. And then maybe I can plan to give him some time to rest and recuperate himself.

Thank you, my Papacito!
You take such good care of us.

xx N.

It’s Written in the Stars

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I can’t choose the gender of my baby.

I can almost choose the part of the year in which I would like the baby to be born and what star sign I’d like him or her to be. But I can’t choose if that baby is a boy or a girl. It’s out of my hands.

Isn’t that wonderful?

I think YES!
What is meant to be for me & for my family…. is meant to be.

I have two boys already. They are brilliant. I love that my first two children are the same gender. They are great together and it’s so fun to see how different their personalities are.

This time around I’d love to have a girl.
Having said that, I’d also love to have a boy.

I imagine I’d feel so protected with 4 boys (and eventually young men) in the house. Not to mention I’d remain the Queen of the Castle.

And then, a little darling girl would be so wonderful also.

I can’t choose the gender of my baby.
And that’s fine by me.

It’s written in the stars.

xx Natalie.

 

Meeting our little one for the first time!

Yesterday started like every other day – with me rushing to the bath room to hang my head over the basin!

Usually before an ultrasound I am slightly nervous about whether or not everything will be ok. This was not the case yesterday. I still had two boys, 2 and under, to look after and all I could think about was how I was going to get that litre of water down without puking it up again.

It was nice for a change, to not have the fear that something may be ‘wrong’ with me or the baby.

And there was nothing wrong.

Just a healthy little jelly baby, with a heart beating strong.

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I felt so supported with the whole family there with me. How lovely to have us all together meeting the new member of our family at the same time!

We enjoyed some time afterwards at a duck pond we found not too far from the ultrasound clinic.

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Duck ponds are always nicer when you’ve just seen the proof that, indeed, you are having a baby :).

xx Natalie.

10 Days of Photo Challenges

It has been a full on ten days since the last time I posted. The morning sickness accompanying this pregnancy is really taking it out of me.

I have been keeping up with my Photo A Day challenge. It has been interesting. I thought having a theme each day would somehow make my photos a little more exciting. I’m realizing that’s not necessarily the case. It can be somehow limiting. And there’s the challenge, isn’t it? How to make the theme interesting! Well, I’m trying, despite feeling constantly sick.

Here are the images from the past ten days:

Day 7 : Favourite ~ my favourite month of the year

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Day 8 : My Sky

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Day 9 : Daily Routine ~ rolling over to switch off the lamp before sleep

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Day 10 : Childhood ~ I used to practice the lift with my brother

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Day 11 : Where I Sleep

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Day 12: Close Up ~ Peace Lily

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Day 13 : In My Bag ~ King Cryolophosaurus is guarding my keys

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Day 14 : Something I’m Reading

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Day 15 : Happiness ~ watching Despicable Me with the boys who giggle all the way through

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Day 16 : Morning ~ rain on flowers

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All my photos during the challenge are taken with my iPhone 4S and the instagram application. If you’re an instagrammer like me, you can find me under the username njcardenas.

Have a lovely week!
xx Natalie.

Shoes and Husband.

Just a quick one with my two latest photos for the January Photo A Day challenge.

The first, my summer sandals.

Day 5 : Something I Wore

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And second, my lovely husband.

Day 6 : Makes Me Smile

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Though I’ve been feeling seriously sick for the past couple of days (you can read more about it here), moments like watching my husband and son walk off into the sunlight together make me feel so good, even just for a few minutes.

Here they are:

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x Natalie.

The Beauty Of Teaching My Children To Sleep.

This week I am teaching my 14 month old son to put himself to sleep. It requires that I sit in his room, night after night, first by his cot and then closer and closer to the door until, nine nights later, I’m all the way out.

We used this technique with my older son and it changed our life. So I’m happy to be teaching my youngest baby boy the same. It means, amazingly, we will all eventually be going off to bed happily and sleeping through the night. It’s some sort of miracle technique.

And it’s given me an extra bonus this week! With thanks to my iPhone 4S and the WordPress application I can make good use of the time spent sitting by my son’s cot, blogging! Awesome!

And when I’m not blogging I see a real beauty in watching my baby fall asleep, so peaceful and content. I love seeing that my children are getting the rest they need to grow into spectacular human beings.

Here are my photos for Day 4 of the January Photo A Day challenge. I couldn’t pick just one (because I wasn’t entirely happy with either of them) so here are two!

Day 4 : Letterbox

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xx Natalie.

One Adoring Mother

It’s Day 3 of the January Photo A Day Challenge with thanks to Fat Mum Slim!

When I thought about what I wanted to photograph for today’s theme, Something You Adore, I kept coming back to my children. At first I was reluctant to choose them as my subject for fear of being too obvious or cliche… Yet again and again I kept coming back to them. There is nothing in the world I adore more than my two boys (soon to be three. Boy or girl? I don’t know yet but it will be exciting when we find out!).

Yesterday I had a challenging day pregnancy wise. The morning sickness (which actually lasts all day) really kicked in. It was hard to eat, I was exhausted, nauseous – the whole lot. It continued today, not as intense as yesterday, but still enough to get me to question “Why am I doing this again?

Today’s Photo A Day theme helped remind me of the answer. I’m doing this again because I adore my children. There is no greater thing I have found in this world than giving and receiving love. And I have found a constant experience of that in my children.

So that’s why I’m doing this again. Adding to my brood of tiny beings of love.

xx Natalie.

Day 3 : Something I Adore

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